Utah State Hospital Externship Report

Medical Office Administration

My three weeks externship at the Utah State Hospital was filled with a large amount of fun tasks and learning experiences. The places I worked in included the records office, the main administration office, two different secretaries’ offices on the hospital units, the treatment mall office, and in the Occupational Therapy unit, which I most poignantly enjoyed. Throughout my experience, I quickly learned the value of working as a team, as I observed the various professionals integrate their assignments, and take lead, where their field specialties took precedence. I also recognized the importance of the education they each had, and how it aided them in carrying out their work.

The first day of my externship, I was required to attend a HIPAA training, to be sure that I was accountable to the standards of HIPAA, through the training they offered. After the training, I immediately went to the Records Office, where I was instructed by the office manager, about their policies, procedures, filling system, and good office management, among other things. The next hour I toured the administration building, learning about all the different office roles it takes to run such a facility, and was introduced to each person working there. Finally I settled in to do some office work of my own. I started off by listening to a doctor’s own audio notes, as recorded, and transcribed then into a format of meeting minutes. This was fun. Before I ended the day, I was shown how to use a business copier/scanner, which is a must in any office setting.

My second day of training for my externship, was also rewarding. It started with attending a morning meeting with a Doctor, Sociologists, Nurses, a Nutritionist, Recreation Therapist, etc. I had the opportunity of introducing myself and my school, and did so in a professional manner. The meeting was very educational.

Each patient was reported on, and their written requests were taken into account, and addressed. The entire team, known as the treatment team, talked about possible solutions to problems, and ways to help motivate the patients in their recovery. The hospital has a system of privileges, which can be earned, if a patient’s treatment plan is followed. The goal is to prepare each patient for their transition of leaving the hospital, so that when they leave, they have a support system to return to, which will help them not relapse, and return.

After the meeting, I went to the Records Office, where I inserted loose files into patient charts, which had been pulled to present important information before a court and judge. I also learned how to use their filing system, which was a numerical system, different than any system I had learned in my schooling. I liked it! I also had the unique opportunity to retrieve microfilm files. I looked up patient charts on microfilm, and imaged them onto hard paper copies. This microfilm was created for patients who had been at the hospital, before other technology means had been adapted to store such archived information.

The microfilmed archived charts were needed because of a court subpoena, and needed to be available for the judge and lawyers. I also had the opportunity to learn about the structure and order of paperwork within the patient’s records, as I took the loose papers, and inserted them into the proper places.

As it turns out, the hospital has most of their patient charts on E-chart now, which is an electronic file, but there are some aspects of the patient charts which are still documented with paper.

On the third day of my externship, I moved over to the Mountain View Unit Office, where I put together family correspondence letters, to inform patient family members of the patient’s clinical meetings. I addressed the envelopes, and filled in the proper patient information on each letter. The patient clinicals are where the patient meets with their treatment team, supportive family members, and can work with them on their treatment goals.  Medications, needs, special concerns are addressed then.

That day, I also had the opportunity to distribute mail into the various mail slots of the staff on that particular unit. Later, I updated the face sheets of patient’s charts for a dozen patient charts by printing out new ones, and replacing the old ones. Later, I laminated and put together patient orientation packets, which patients receive upon admission, orienting them about the basics and requirements, as well as rewards systems.

My fourth day was spent preparing paperwork in the records office. I counted out and stapled together sections of information which were subpoenaed, and needed to go to court. In total there were over one thousand papers with notes, with an average of 150 papers per section. I also pulled out pages from patient charts, copied them, and added the copies to the subpoenaed paper work, according to each patient’s second, third, and fourth admission. Then I returned the pages, and their charts. This was probably the most repetitive day, but I still enjoyed it.

On the fifth day, I again attended morning meeting, and then observed how a clinical list is set up. I also observed how notifications to the patient’s liaisons was completed. I again prepared family correspondence for the patient’s clinical meetings, and after that, checked to see if all patient hospital admission forms were up to date. If they were not, I replaced them with the correct and newest version. I then delivered the outgoing mail from the unit, and picked up the incoming mail.

I attended another team meeting, then attended a patient’s clinical meeting, which was very fascinating. After this I spiral bound adult service manuals to be used in therapy groups.

The next place of work for me came at the treatment mall, which is a place where groups are held to offer patients help with motivation, skill learning, education about aspects of mental health, and life enrichment. I worked in the office area, where I called the units to find out why a patient had missed a group, and thus keep track of where they are, to and from their groups.

While there I also had the opportunity to organize many loose manuals, packets, and other miscellaneous items which were in need of filing and organizing. I also updated the call list for the office manager of the treatment mall, using Microsoft Word, and formatted it according to his desire.

I had the opportunity to take the roll responsibilities for the treatment mall, counting up all the numbers of individuals who attended, and came up with a percentage.

On my final day, I had the very special opportunity to find out what career path I would really like to take, and do for a living. This was when I worked in the Occupational Therapy Unit. The first thing they had me do, was organize their closet, in which having done so, I got to see a lot of what they are all about. They do crafts, games, activities, gardening, sports, community outings, etc., all for the purpose of benefiting the patients, through providing positive outlets and self- expression, as well as helping to give themselves an identity outside of their mental and emotional health challenges. This not only helps patients build self-confidence and esteem, but also allows them to explore hobbies and interests, increasing their mental and emotional health through therapeutic means.

I was so intrigued with the whole aspect and process of this, that it rang true to me, and I realized like never before, that this is what I want to do for a living. Although this will take some time and more education, I feel this a great opportunity to learn and grow even more in my ability to help people. I would be truly happy doing a job such as Occupational Therapy.

As I have had this experience of my externship, I have truly come to love other people with mental illness(es), and the people who work diligently to serve them. I have found the path I would like to take in assisting them, and what I would truly enjoy. This has been a very meaningful, rewarding, and eye opening experience for me, and one lesson I have learned from my schooling and externship, is that if you are willing to do what it takes to be successful, even though the prospects are arduous, go forward, and you will find that the doors of opportunity will open for you, as you are in the process of striving to be better.


The Creation, Creatures, Forbidden fruit, and Fall

Whose Seed Should Be In Itself

God commanded the creatures to be fruitful and multiply, separately and at a different time, than Adam and Eve’s commandment to be fruitful and multiply [and replenish the earth]. See Moses 2:22

If not so, the commandment given to the creatures would have been void unto them, if it were to be contingent upon Adam and Eve’s decision to partake of the forbidden fruit, which did make their bodies capable of having seed (children).

The creatures also, were created whole and innocent, without the ability to have seed (offspring), like Adam and Eve, but, they were made to eat the grass, herbs, and other forms of vegetation and plant life, which were in the earth and seas.

These plant life, herbs and vegetation were created, already with seeds in themselves, to reproduce after their own kind, but again, the creatures and mankind were not created thus.

Adam and Eve were instructed to eat of every fruit of the garden, except that of the forbidden fruit, from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, which fruit tree was the only fruit tree with seed in itself, and was none other than a fig tree in the midst. This tree with seed to reproduce, did change the bodies of Adam and Eve, and in order to have seed (children), they both needed to partake.

This being the case, all of the other fruit trees in the garden were not originally created with seeds in them, but were spontaneously created by God. See Moses 2:11 and 29 were it reads, as regarding the fruit trees of the garden, “…whose seed “should be,” and also, “shall be” in itself, meaning, that seeds were not in them yet, but would be, after Adam and Eve partook, and the earth was changed. This did take place during the fall season of the earth.

Upon Adam and Eve’s partaking of the only fruit tree in the garden which did already have seed in itself (the forbidden tree’s fruit), their bodies were changed, in a manner in which their bodies could now begin to have seed and reproduce.

Because of partaking of this fruit, with the genetics of it passing into their bodies, the ability to have seed for Adam and Eve became a reality. Their bodies also then became mortal, which introduced the into the cycle of life, sin and death into the earth.

The creatures and animals, without the same knowledge as given to mankind, were to eat freely of the plants, herbs and grass, which did already have seed in itself, and did cause the animals to have the ability to have offspring, without the same repercussions as Adam and Eve.

Adam and Eve were only given to eat fruit, and not herbs nor grain, until after the fall. They were also not to eat the beasts of the field, until after the fall, because had they done so, their bodies would also have then had the ability to reproduce, as did the animals, from eating the herbs and plants. But they had no knowledge to kill before the fall, and with no need to harvest nor eat by the sweat of their brow, they ate only fruit, because it was in abundance, and all they needed.

Because mankind was not to bring death or sin into the world, by the standards of heaven, God had commanded them not to eat of the fruit of the Knowledge of good and evil, but they did. In other words, by having become aware of evil, along with good, by disobeying a heavenly law, as well as having the opportunity to learn, through having children, they could now have the opportunities and tests of life, which would prepare them to become more like our Father in Heaven.

Since they originally were innocent, but had an awareness of the commands given to them by God, they were held accountable for their transgression, and once they had eaten the fig tree which had seed in itself, and their bodies changed, when their bowels released to the earth, its deposit of sin (unhealthiness), the earth too was changed, and became fallen, wherein they were driven out of the garden of Eden, to till the earth, eat by the sweat of their brow, and shepherd flocks and herds to eat.


The Psychiatric Medications Dilemma, and their Solutions

A Catch 22

When it comes to overcoming mental and emotional health deficits, it’s like a catch 22. With having mental illnesses, and taking psychiatric medications, in order for one to heal emotionally, so they can move forward, and actually move on to have the necessary mental, social and emotional healing they need, to overcome their challenges, they would generally need to not have to take psychiatric medications. This, because with the drug induced disconnect of having an unnatural high from taking the medications, they would then not be able to emotionally connect to their emotions, and feel then to heal. For to heal normally, one needs to feel their damaged emotions, and work their way through them, through therapy or otherwise.

On the other hand, if a mentally ill individual is off their medications, then they would not be in a healthy state of mind mentally, to do what would normally be done in the process of healing their emotions, such as therapy, to overcome these deficits anyway.

If one could heal emotionally, then their mental issues would also follow suit, and would be better managed, or even resolved, but it just doesn’t work this way, for with most individuals who suffer with mental and emotional challenges, this very real barrier has never been overcome. Especially in a case like mine, where my brain has legitimate mental illnesses, as from an injected poison I will be speaking of hereafter.

Others, who just need a better diet, family relationships, friends, and therapy, and/or other more healthy and natural treatments, can get off of or not go the route of medications at all, but for most individuals, and especially for legitimate mental illnesses like mine, meaning a physical brain malfunction, they are most definitely necessary.

It is worth noting here, for further understanding of these medications, that a study done by the University of Utah, showing by scientific experiment, that the same areas and chemicals that are affected in the brain when one feels the Holy Spirit, are the same in the regions and chemicals effected, when one uses drugs, illegal, or otherwise prescribed – psychiatric drugs (a slow release version of such). The difference, is that one is healthy, true and right, namely the Spirit, and the others are unhealthy, not normal, right, nor ethical. In the case of mental illness need, I, as a consumer of psychiatric medications, must do the next right thing, which is to take my medications.

As a consumer of psychiatric medications, I feel it is always naturally harder for me to feel and have love connections with others. This because although the medications I take help me be at a more proper, stable state of mind mentally, by stimulating and altering my brain, it is not a natural, but drug induced high. I don’t have the actual, stable, mental, or emotional grounding beneath me to stand upon, and so it is very difficult for me to factually, and actually connect emotionally with anyone. Consequently, this has also been a huge contributor to my sexual addiction deficit, and also why I believe I never felt I fit in with the Addiction Recovery Support Groups.

Also, the fact exists, that antipsychotic medications are made from the same sources and substances, as what unlawful drugs are made from, and many mentally ill people use these illegal drugs to “self-medicate.”

The difference is, that these meds, which are strictly controlled, are actually made to be a “slow release” version of these same substances, and sometimes made to be combinations, or “cocktails” of these otherwise illegal drugs, not prescribed by Doctors as medications.

Another factor, is that these drugs in their illegal use form, which send a person’s brain chemistry up way too high and fast, and then back down lower than before, are harmful to our brains, and the extremity of their effects are not healthy or good, and can actually cause mental illness problems.

My mind is one, which needs the medications, to stimulate my mind to work at the proper functioning levels, because of the fact of having a truly bonified set of mental illnesses. And these, not stress, nor even street drug induced, for I never took drugs, nor crumbled under the extreme pressures of stress I lived in all growing up. I was in fact, injected in the roof of my mouth with what I believe was a rat poison, which literally gave me 4 of the worst case mental illnesses, and the worst case extremities of them, as well as brain damage, which complicated things exponentially.

I believe this injection would have killed me, except for the miracle I experienced, which only happened because I keep the Lord’s Word of Wisdom, which is the Lord’s health code with covenant promises from Him.

This injection happened when I was 17, and because of being around these demonic people who did this, I was programed and treated very negatively by them all growing up.

So, being all compounded, with all these worst-case scenario mental illnesses, brain damage, emotional baggage, plus having evil spirits having a more direct access to me because of the mental illnesses, having a thinner spiritual veil, where they could directly torment me, and all these combined in the very worst of ways possible, only the Lord knew, and could comprehend my lot and course, and what it would take for recovery in my life. Fortunately for me, with Him, anything is possible! And I mean everything!

It wasn’t until much later, under the direction of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, that I was healed of the brain damage, even to the understanding that I had even had it in the first place. For you see, a person who has brain damage, doesn’t know they have that ailment, because that part of the body which measures self-illness awareness, is the brain, and if it is not working properly, it cannot discern the challenges it faces.

After this brain damage healing miracle occurred, through a priesthood blessing, I became much smarter, more aware of things, more capable, and all around more intelligent, than I could have previously comprehended.

This miracle took place when I was 40 years old, as I was constrained by the Holy Spirit to finally ask for a priesthood blessing to heal my illnesses, for I had previously felt it was not God’s will to ask of this. I also thought the blessing was for the mental illnesses, not knowing about the brain damage.

In the blessing I experienced, something very interesting, miraculous and marvelous occurred, in this phenomenon of my brain damage healing, which is a story for another time. Nevertheless, this healing proved to be a life changer for my entire existence.

However, things did not play out in the way I had expected, for in the blessing were stated these specific words, “To stop taking the medications.” So I did, and then had the experiences I will share here, which eventually led to me finding the solution, at least for me, of emotional healing, despite mental illnesses and Psychiatric medications.

For although the brain damage at this point was completely healed, I went off all my medications, and experienced the following, in which I found the solution to the problem of the Psychiatric Medications Dilemma for myself.

There is a solution, which I found spiritually, in the crucible of a very difficult experience. It was then, when I was off my medications for 3 months, which was the second and last time of going off meds, which occurred in my mental health maintenance experience, each time lasting 3 months exactly, that this occurred.

The first time I was off meds, happened when I lost my medical benefits, and couldn’t afford medications. This literally happened because I married someone who is not “disabled.”

Now, during this second time of no medications, the Lord allowed me to see certain things spiritually, for with mental illness comes having a thinner spiritual veil, and being off of medicines, this veil is even thinner. I could also feel more certain parts of my emotions, because of not being on my medications, which would normally block them. And with God lifting me up, and sustaining me, somewhere in the middle ground, between my mental, spiritual and emotional health, I was in a place where I could function enough, howbeit under very difficult circumstances to endure, being immersed in an enigmatic environment and experience, that I could thus be inspired.

During this duality of environment, both spiritually, emotionally and mentally, it created the proper laboratory of learning and revelation, which for me led to the miraculous blessings of emotional, spiritual and mental healing, all to the degree which I experienced at that time. And it was at this time that I received the following instructions from the Lord, which I will describe here:

While in this state, the Lord provided a way for me to emotionally heal more, although not completely. Nonetheless, this experience did provide me with an understanding of the solution I needed, to fully face this medication/emotional/ mental/human relationship dilemma.

Picture this, say I was carrying some emotional baggage and pain in my body in my back, between my shoulders. The Lord would then take his atoning sacrifice experience, and apply his atoning blood and healing to me on a molecular level. Such as where there was a body cell of mine, carrying a grievance or sickness from a bad life experience or abuse, the Lord would then apply, cell to cell, His atoning blood and sacrifice, and l would truly be healed in that place, and in that way, both physical and spiritually, thus bypassing the need to talk about it, or have any other form of modern therapeutic processes.

Now, think of this in a multiplied manner, where many cells are addressed, and you can begin to see where some real healing can be achieved. This is how the Lord worked in me, to help me heal more, emotionally and mentally, during this off medicine experience.

Now when I did finally get back on my medications, after 3 months of not being on them, after God communicating to me in no uncertain terms that I had to get back on them, and right then, I have seen a huge difference in my improvement. For I am no longer emotionally tied down to the emotional disabling baggage deficits I once had, and I an free to move forward.

For mentally, I was cognizant of, and could do much more, thus allowing me to be more successful in my life, dreams and ambitions. It was a slow, uphill battle to return to being stabilized, but once returning back to medications, and since then, it has been an upward, forward moving growth and trajectory path for me, and I love it. It’s not easy, but it’s worth every bit.

Because the brain damage is gone, and I’m also emotionally/mentally healthier, things are far, far better. I have discovered that I am smarter, wiser, and can comprehend and do much, much more than I ever could before.

Now, switching tracks back to these medications, which have to be strictly controlled, for an overdose of them will potentially have the same “high” effects as the “street” drug versions, but also be more deadly, because they are more potent. This is because they have more drug dosage in them, so they can last longer, over a longer time throughout the day, and are slow release. This is why people die when they “drug” overdose with these controlled medications.

The horrible thing about these substances from the illegal use side of things, is that the quick, intense, and fast high given to the brain chemistry on use, can have the effect of causing addiction, and mental illness concerns and problems.

Either way, illegal or controlled, these substances both have their negative effects on a person’s life. But at least for a person with mental illness, who when using controlled medications for their treatment, can get some sort of sanity, usually minus having emotional connections and relationships, they can live a fraction of the life they might, if things were different. For with mental illness, lack of emotional self connection, and thus relationships, and all the other quantifiers which make recovery virtually a lost cause, all the very things they need to succeed in life are striped away, and blocked from life for good, without the hope of renewal. Unless, they travel the road less traveled and fight.

Let’s face it, interpersonal connections are needed, which if had, friends and good relationships, would most likely add to an individual’s mental and emotional stability, and provide more of a strengthened recovery foundation for their road of health they are traveling on. But this usually isn’t the case, at least for me.

In my own circumstance, because I have full on legitimate mental illnesses, and in my personal opinion, the worst of the worst, yet am doing the best of the best, the only way in which I can ever expect to fully experience a whole, full and complete recovery and healing in this life, is if I were to continue on my medications, and work very, very, very hard, as I’ve been doing all along, while allowing God to carry me, and help me, and become as mentally and emotionally strong and healthy as I can possibly be, that I’d be placed in a situation and position, where I’d be in the presence of the first presidency of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, and have them place their hands upon my head, and pronounce upon me a priesthood blessing of healing. That within this profound blessing would also be pronounced the words, to “Not ever again take medications.” Then I’d be healed and free! But the only purpose I can see for that ever happening, is if I was to be seated before the first presidency, as part of being set apart as a further covenant and ordinance, in that of being called to serve the Lord, as an especial witness of Him.

So if you can begin to understand my thinking on this subject of the Lord’s continuous revelations to me concerning His will over me in the matter, for I’ve known about this calling since I was 14, before any actual mental illness problems ever evolved, but that’s also another story.

I know that the things I’ve struggle with, the Lord knows, and He also knows and has a way of reconciling my trials, while strengthening and teaching me at the same time. Pretty awesome how He works actually. I’m very grateful for the medications, and happy to have to take this cross, if it is my only means to properly prepare me to bless the lives of many others, through my journey and enduring example.

I hope I can be an advocate in the future for folks, maybe by being a public speaker or keynote, or even some sort of advocate or facilitator.

Something I have been pleasantly made aware of, is that even though I have severe mental challenges, and medication issues, I am still all here. Meaning, I am still Shane Robert Brown. Every part of who I am is still here with me, and I am physically trying to live out my spiritual life the way I can and am.

One other thing to note, is that because I’m always on a somewhat drug induced high, it’s more difficult to recognize having the Spirit, because as before stated, the Spirit activates the brain in the same areas as the drugs do, prescribed or otherwise. Thus, the pull for people to utilize and sell illegal drugs is high. Pun intended. They get the high, but without doing the work to get there.
But know also, that part of feeling the Spirit is also an emotional effect. For the Spirit speaks to our whole souls, both the heart, and mind. But the drugs only pull at the mind and brain, striping the sacred experience in half.

This is why I feel so blessed to have been emotionally healed as much as I have, to be able to recognize this, and to have some of these sacred feelings restored. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.


40 Years


The other day I was talking with my Dad and Mom, discussing the church’s curriculum for this week for, Come, Follow Me. This we sometimes do at my Mom’s and Dad’s house, which I really enjoy very much. We talked about how the Lord told the children of Isreal they couldn’t enter into the promised land, because Moses had asked God to spare them when He was going to destroy them for their abominations? It was because Moses had not provided them with the proper view of the sanctity of the Lord by doing so. Here is the verse in Numbers 20 explaining this.

12 ¶ And the Lord spake unto Moses and Aaron, Because ye believed me not, to sanctify me in the eyes of the children of Israel, therefore ye shall not bring this congregation into the land which I have given them.

One day of sin for them was to be counted for a year of wandering in the wilderness for the children of Israel, because of the severity of their abominations. 40 years in the wilderness for forty days. We also know that one thousand years our time, is a day unto the Lord, so in this regard, the Lord was being fair, time wise. Plus, the fact that they only lived so long, lines up perfectly with the divine plan of our Father in Heaven, for there is nothing random. As always, I love this kind of thinking, and I hope it’s also edifying for you.

So the Israelites may have been spared, but oh for such a time to repent in the wilderness, a total period of 40 years for the 40 days they misbehaved. 40 years of grueling penatence, for what time they may have enjoyed in the goodly land God had promised to give them for their posterity. Although their repentance may have made their 3rd estate (post mortal life) better, I would have liked to have avoided such a consequence in the first place! The things we do here count, and in a big way!

It ultimately comes down to a simple application of the gospel plan. Like my Dad and brother said, trust in the Lord, and obey His commandments.


The Animals Entered 2 by 2

Listen to the Lord

It was the Lord who individually chose, and spoke to each animal chosen to enter into the ark. However, Noah, the Great Steward of Refuge in the First Provocation, was to speak unto them as the conduit from the Lord, to the animals He so chose. The animals did so in obedience, to the command given unto them through Noah, the Great Patriarch.

It was the animal’s tendency towards being obedient and docile, that they were chosen, among other aspects. It was by prayerful righteousness, and the spirit of discernment, that Noah and his sons, the sons of righteousness, were able to go out among the species in their natural habitat, and bring them aboard from abroad.

For in those days, the earth was filled with violence, among men and also among the animals, which also had to be destroyed, but the righteousness were sparred.


The Beguiling Serpent

And he and all they that followed him were cast out

So, when Lucifer was cast down with all his devils, where did the others go, when he came and tempted Adam and Eve? Consider this verse from Moses 4:6. For clarification, the brackets denote my input, and the parentheses are an actual part of the scripture verse therein.

6 And Satan put it [his evil spirits] into the heart of the serpent, (for he had drawn away many after him,) and he sought also to beguile Eve, for he knew not the mind of God, wherefore he sought to destroy the world.

Remember, if Satan can take over the heart, and the serpent was already the best candidate for this. See Moses 4:5 below, than he can control the whole creature.

5 And now the serpent was more subtle than any beast of the field which I, the Lord God, had made.

So, with the evil spirits dwelling in the heart of the serpent, Satan could then command it, as he does his followers, and with them, he spoke to Eve, through the body of the serpent.


Natural Man & Woman vs. Spiritual Man & Woman

The Father of Nations, Bearer of the Abrahamic Covenant for the House of Israel, Sealer of the Promised Land

Question: Mosiah 3:19 tells us we are “natural men” and “women” from the fall, and that we can only “becometh a saint” through the Holy Spirit and the Atonement of Jesus Christ. Watch the above video, and listen to the audio below, and explain what these things mean to you in the comments, and what the process is as you have experienced it. Also, what stories can you find from the Holy Bible or Book of Mormon which exemplify this process?

A Mighty Change of Heart
by: Spencer J. Condie
Of the First Quorum of the Seventy
October 1993

Listen to the above audio talk from Elder Spencer J. Condie, and then answer the question for yourself in the comments section. Then you can read my answer below as well. See how yours compares.

Answer: Being a natural man or woman means that we are failing life, or living life through our body’s natural senses. We are thinking with our fallen physical brain, seeing with our fallen physical eyes, and feeling with our fallen physical hearts, for our body has these functions, even as our spirits do, but fallen.

To be a spiritually minded, hearted, and seeing Saint, we must use our spirits as our consciousness, rather than our bodies. We need to have an awakening from the word of God in our souls, where the Holy Spirit can, and has quickened our understanding. We do this as we utilize the atonement administered therein. Through the Holy Spirit we can have power over our bodies.

Living as a spiritual man or woman, our spirits think more quickly, and our bodies are strengthened through the Spirit’s manifestation. Our hearts become purer with the Holy Spirit’s essence and presence, and we are living the life God is living in us. This is what is known as living with the Gift of the Holy Ghost. To do so, one must have been baptized and confirmed with the power and authority of God, and receive the Gift of the Holy Ghost, under the direction of one who holds the priesthood keys to do so on earth. Our hearts, minds, bodies, and every facet of the members of our body are then elevated and strengthened in Christ.

Many people do not realize this, but to the natural man or woman, the so called, “subconscious” part of our existence, is really our spirits, thoughts (mind), feelings (heart), etc. If you are a natural man or woman, the veil, or our bodies rather, make it so we can’t be as aware of this part of our spiritual self, but it is still in us, because it is us.

Depending on how we follow the promptings of the Holy Ghost, or the Gift of the Holy Ghost, as we are obedient to the commandments of God, the effectiveness with which we utilize our spiritual man or women self is lessened or increased. For we truly are our spirits, and that which we pick up “subconsciously” by our spirits, doesn’t miss a thing, and still does affect us in the things we do. We do need to allow our spirits in Christ to have control over our fallen flesh body, rather than the opposite.

Now, after the resurrection, our bodies will be united with us, in a way in which they will actually a part of our literal identity. We will then be a “complete” soul.



The Good in the Bad

Seek ye the better part

I will now teach you from the education gained from my life’s suffering experiences, the purposes of why we face such trying difficulties in life. For they who are the righteous are the willing, and are called upon to help bear their share of the ill “by-product,” from the weight of mankind’s sinful experiences. This, to help off-set the negative effects from the deeds we all commit, for we are all connected, and we all sin.

Every choice we make affects one another. We cannot separate this reality. Those who do bad can still be blessed by the good actions of others, if they will allow it. Likewise, the good can be tried and blessed, by choosing to act appropriately, in the face of the negative choices of others who error.

We do this by making good use of the Lord’s atoning power, who does take all things upon himself, and who also does carry the bulk of the rest of the residual effects of the sins of mankind. Yet, if we don’t repent, we cannot stop the negative motions of our choices, but by the grace of Jesus Christ, and others, who by using the atonement of Jesus Christ, can act appropriately, and turn the tide, thus stopping the negative cycle in that regard. In this blessed gift is the spiritual gift known as becoming a peacemaker. We all must repent, to do our part to help all the human family of God.

Life is this way, because God needs and wants each of us to grow, and if when we repent, all of the effects of our sins were completely swallowed up without any consequence, no one would ever learn, change or grow. We do need to forgive, repent, forgive and repent, and all throughout our lives, become like our Savior and Heavenly Father, eventually gaining that which we came here to acquire. The absolute necessary experiences of our own, to progress on toward the next phase of our life, even past the portals of death.

While we do our best, and very best to lift, no matter where we stand, we can then bless all others by choosing the better part. We need to choose to use the trials we’ve been given in this divinely designed infrastructure, to aid in stopping the negative ripple effects of the collective whole, not allowing them to overcome us, nor to pass on to others, nor future generations. We do need to support each other as the children of God we are, and with this time of test and probation, we, who are the noble, are called upon to take the surplus of the extenuating circumstances of sin, for those whom we are truly responsible for, even all our dear brothers and sisters, for we are indeed their keepers.

Every time we act or react in a situation, this causes an equal positive or negative effect, and we get to choose for ourselves, what types of actions we will take, good or bad. In the face of this divinely ordained, God given model, we can do good even in the smallest manner, even unobserved by another human being, such as reading the scriptures, and this will be sent out into mankind, in very real and substantial ways, through the positive vibes and ripples it creates in the lives of others, affecting all for good.

Yes, every story matters, and every life accounts. You are well beloved and known. You are important and irreplaceable. Your actions of good matter. You are so desperately needed. Whatever we are not able to bear in patience, in this divine framework and design, the Lord will carry, and He will always be with us!


My Thoughts on the Sacrament and Ongoing Restoration

First the water (blood), and then the bread (body)

Just as was in the order of the offered atoning sacrifice of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ:

First, His blood was shed for us in the Garden of Gethsemane, in the which he suffered for all our heartaches, pains and infirmities, as well as abuses suffered, and even things albeit, inflicted by God Himself for our own growth and His purposes.

Secondly, Christ’s bodily harm. This, because we need Christ’s forgiveness from all our sins. His scourging and placement of plaited thorns, as well as nails in sacred place, being hung in shame, and spear thrusted through. He partook of our sins and iniquities, with the punishments accompanying them into/onto his body, organs and flesh.

The significance is this, we all need love, before we can repent. This is why Christ suffered our afflictions in the Garden of Gethsemane first, wherein He took our pains, infirmities, suffered abuses and so forth, infusing into, and replacing them in us with true love (charity), understanding and delighted enlightenment.

Afterwards then, came the scourging, mocked crowning, carrying “our” cross, and excruciating crucifixion, all to the point of bringing into his soul, through the Father’s holy will, the punishments for our sins and transgressions.

My thoughts on this are thus, as the Lord prepares His Saints to become more worthy and ready for more blessings, the Lord will then restore the proper order of the Sacrament, even as the Lord replaced the Law of Moses with the Sacrament in the first place. This will mean, partaking of the water first, and then the bread.

There will be no other changes to the sacrament, prayers or otherwise. Also to remember, that we are not blessing the tokens of His flesh and blood, but we are asking God the Eternal Father Himself to do so.

However, our receipt of these blessings is upon our faithful repentance and obedience. We must do as the sacramental covenants require and promise.

Note: These are my thoughts only, and not coming from the heads of the church, meaning, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.


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